《这不是告别》读后感1000字
帕克和埃莉诺，按着时光流逝，他们今年48岁。
他们彼此还在深念对方吗？
爱着爱着，他们也就长大了，书的扉页是这么说的。
Rainbow Rowell的名字很美啊，跟16岁听的旋律一样美。
我没有挤过小卡车，n年前学的手动挡的驾照也白瞎了。
帕克已经放弃让埃莉诺回来，可梦里还是她火红的头发。
1986年的夏天，校车的后座是谈天论地的好地方，戴上耳机就是封闭的世界，只有窃窃私语。
埃莉诺是自卑的，这个是本质里面的存在，她讨厌自己的红头发，讨厌自己的宽骨骼，讨厌自己的家庭，所以她打扮得与众不同，恰恰是为了掩盖自己的心虚，大家也就不会愿意来打扰她的日子。可是，偏偏是帕克，“一个很酷的男孩”喜欢她，起初的不经意坐在斜对面，对她说了脏话，心里还觉得阴魂不散地出现在英语课，而当帕克被埃莉诺吸引时，一切又变得不一样了，“雀斑之上是酒窝，圆得像山楂果，简直可爱得犯规”，他真的被埃莉诺吸引了想去捍卫她的一切，他认为自己唯一能做或者该做的事就是——让她快乐。谁说忧虑的思绪不能有甜蜜的味道，埃莉诺渐渐被牵引，被融化，被爱，好喜欢他们交往的那些文字，有些稚嫩，属于他们的16岁，在夜深人静的时候，去找寻彼此，在窗台，厨房，车库都相互陪伴，话很多，说不完，是热恋，舍不得。帕克为了埃莉诺，勇敢了打了一架，埃莉诺为了帕克，接受了他妈妈给她的改造。
“我想我是为了你而活。”帕克和埃莉诺始终纠结的，这到底是不是喜欢，那句“我爱你”有几分真实性。过了18岁可能会渐渐明白吧，那种爱是出于一种吸引、一种互相需要，埃莉诺微弱贫乏的灵魂和生命因为帕克的出现和到来，开始富有生机，开始焕发光彩，而帕克，他被埃莉诺的与众不同所深深的吸引，尽管不承认爸爸说的他是因为埃莉诺很古怪才喜欢她的。一个正常的人对一个不正常的人产生情愫也不是什么可怕的事情啊。正如帕克怀念埃莉诺时说的“埃莉诺让所有人都显得乏味、平淡，而且永远不够美好”。
因为雷诺，埃莉诺不得不离开家，离开帕克，我想在很早的之前她就做好了告别他的准备，所以当帕克把她送入她的新生活离开的时候，她就不再读他的心，给他打电话，我不知道我读的是不是全本，我的结局是明信片上只写了三个字，我猜是“我想你”，又觉得是“埃莉诺”她的名字，简单的就够了。
读的是中文版，在豆瓣上看到了英文的摘录，英文读起来似乎更好~
Eleanor was right. She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasnt supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something
Holding Eleanors hand was like holding a butterfly. Or a heartbeat. Like holding something complete, and completely alive
I want everyone to meet you. Youre my favorite person of all time
What are the chances you’d ever meet someone like that? he wondered. Someone you could love forever, someone who would forever love you back? And what did you do when that person was born half a world away? The math seemed impossible
“You can be Han Solo, he said, kissing her throat. And Ill be Boba Fett. Ill cross the sky for you.”
“I just want to break that song into pieces and love them all to death.”
“I dont like you, Park, she said, sounding for a second like she actually meant it. I… – her voice nearly disappeared – hink I live for you.
He closed his eyes and pressed his head back into his pillow.
I dont think I even breathe when were not together, she whispered. Which means, when I see you on Monday morning, its been like sixty hours since Ive taken a breath. Thats probably why Im so crabby, and why I snap at you. All I do when were apart is think about you, and all I do when were together is panic. Because every second feels so important. And because Im so out of control, I cant help myself. Im not even mine anymore, Im yours, and what if you decide that you dont want me? How could you want me like I want you?
He was quiet. He wanted everything shed just said to be the last thing he heard. He wanted to fall asleep with I want you in his ears.”
“Nothing before you counts, he said. And I cant even imagine an after.
She shook her head. Dont.
What?
Dont talk about after.
I just meant that… I want to be the last person who ever kisses you, too…. That sounds bad, like a death threat or something. What Im trying to say is, youre it. This is it for me.”
“Damn, damn, damn, she said. I never said why I like you, and now I have to go.
Thats okay, he said.
Its because youre kind, she said. And because you get all my jokes…
Okay. He laughed.
And youre smarter than I am.
I am not.
And you look like a protagonist. She was talking as fast as she could think. You look like the person who wins in the end. Youre so pretty, and so good. You have magic eyes, she whispered. And you make me feel like a cannibal.
Youre crazy.
I have to go. She leaned over so the receiver was close to the base.
Eleanor – wait, Park said. She could hear her dad in the kitchen and her heartbeat everywhere.
Eleanor – wait – I love you.”